Scars For Me & Souvenirs For You

Saturday, May 23, 2009

you talk too much.maybe that's your way of breaking up the silence that fills you up.

I'm at work on a SATURDAY, but I like working weekends so shut up I shall. The weekend is here, which means I am that much nearer to next weekend. The plans are obviously all over the place cause some boy took off to Bali and left me stranded. bleah. But none the less I am looking forward to it, even if it means I take that damn bus alone. It doesn't matter, only because it's liberating. Ironically enough, its called 'Freedom Festival'. How appropriate, no? I know right. Only set back is that I am still sick, and I hope I recover, pronto!

I've become quite the twitter lately. No surprise there though, my life revolves around the virtual world. Speaking of which, season finales are here! OTH, Desperate Housewives, Grey's, 90210..boohoo! only consolation,

WEEDSSSS is back next month!!!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 1:35 AM

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

"Look, you had your shot and you blew it, so why start toying with her again? I mean if you want her why don't you man up and tell her! Otherwise you gotta cut her lose. You gotta cut her lose and you gotta do it for real this time!" -Nate

So this particular line rang a bell and for highly obvious reasons. But then again, everybody wants what they can't have. I on the other hand want what I know I can have, call it contentment call it whatever you want. I know and I want. I don't need it, because I can live without it, I've been living with very minimal of it. It doesn't complete me, it's just become a part of me. With that said, it doesn't bug me so much anymore. Three cheers for Shina. :)

Anyhoo, I know I just came back from a holiday but I really feel like going for another. Raine's off to Perth, the same holiday I was meant to go for till my mom suggests otherwise. Heard Jhonny's off to Phuket, UGH! I'd give anything to go back again! I swear! :( But in order to afford another holiday I actually have to get my ass to work. Then there's my mommy, who's going to Kota Kinabalu - my sister and I are giving her a treat in a form of a short getaway for Mothers Day with my Daddy! So yes I will have the house all to myself some time end of this month EXCEPT that I will be off to Melaka for Freedom the very same weekend! Bummer and not so bummer. I'm making the most of those 2 days cause the next holiday after that will be, well not a holiday but a lil spa trip to Batam with the girls in June. So the next REAL holiday might just be in freaking August to Aussie land. Sighh.

Note to self: I refuse to wait till 2010 to go back to my homeland THAILAND. I need to see my king and his people, by the end of this year. (looks at the Sis, Nithi & Naresh..start planning guyss)

♥the trick is to keep breathing 11:05 PM

As of late I have been nothing but exhausted. The emotional pain overwrites the physical pain and almost numbs it. I am neither here nor there, I have lost myself in the process. But in order to find yourself, you have to lose yourself no? So here I am five years later ready to embark on this long (and not so lonely) road I reckon and I have faith. I finally have faith in myself and believe this is gonna get me somewhere.

Slowly but surely - I am embracing change, and sometimes change is what we need.

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***Freeedom, here I comee :)) 29/30

♥the trick is to keep breathing 2:36 AM

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Weren't you the one who told me once you would be there?
And every time I try to walk away,
you keep me in my place.

~

When you love someone - you'll do anything
You'll do all the crazy things that you cant explain
You'll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

You'll deny the truth - believe a lie
There will be times that you'll believe you can really fly
But your lonely nights - have just begun
When you love someone

When you love someone - you'll feel it deep inside
And nothing else can ever change your mind
When you want someone - when you need someone
When you love someone...

When you love someone - you'll sacrifice
You'd give it everything you got and you wont think twice
You'd risk it all - no matter what may come
When you love someone
You'll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

♥the trick is to keep breathing 1:04 PM