Scars For Me & Souvenirs For You

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Good afternoon. looks like I had a good sleep after all! :)) I didn't sleep as early as i had expected but early enough by my standards. Was busy watching The Secret Diary of A Call Girl. I never knew that was a series from the UK. The whole accent bit got to me at first, but the first few episodes got me hooked instantly, it didn't matter after awhile. This ones definitely going down into my books of Guilty Pleasures.

There's exactly two weekends to go before I move, and my room's in a mess. I'm done with my wardrobe, books and miscellaneous stuff. Now is just my vanity side of the room, the make up, the accessories the bags, more accessories! I've been having the cold much lately, the dust in my room is invisibly piling up. It's soo annoying. grrrr!

Ohh anyway I am so so loving the songs from Coldplay's new album Viva La Vida. Especially 42 and Violet Hill, oh and Strawberry Swing too. Sounds like something you'd hear on The OC or OTH. Ha, thats what Sri-ish asked me when i said i liked the song 42 and he said "why you heard it on The OC huh?" Not every thing is about The OC Sriii, and that series ended such a long time ago, I couldn't possibly have heard any song from their new album on it.

Two purchases to make: Tiesto's ISOS 7 Asia Album & Viva La Vida !!

Needless to mention ISOS 7, hear it and you'd know what the hype is all about. The songs in there are chilled out, the beats and lyrics are great! Something different as opposed to his Ibiza mixes and other ISOS albums. (the song uploaded below is from his new album) I loveee it! Can't wait to hook up my all new sound system for my new room and blast hissss trance !

I'm SO gonna get kicked outta Orchid !

I just realized that the timing on my posts are all US timings. No wonder my post is posted as 30th of July and not 31st. Good evening baby !! Heh, speaking of which..

Two years and seven months at the stroke of midnight. =)) Heh. xx

♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:20 PM

Beat beat beat! I'm just dead beat. or rather it's been awhile since I've been this busy i guess. Monday to Saturday straight, the only day i get is sabbath. Fair enough, i shall not complain because i wasn't forced by the neck to get myself this busy. I chose to and for a good reason at that too. :)

Work at mediacorp is fun! I've got a new project briefing tomorrow and work's till 10pm and home after. Had tuition earlier this afternoon, finally met my k1 kid. His name is Gabriel, and he's an angel! He reminds me of triston!! The big inquisitive eyes, long lashes but definitely a hell lot quieter than TJ for sure. And everytime i ask him what comes after a certain alphabet, he sings the entire ABC rhyme out. So adorableeee he is!

I've to leave my house in 15mins for my next tuition. I only end at 9ish and i think imma come home and crash!! Was asked to club but i'm so not up for the whole loud music and alcohol thing tonight. I want to go seeeee my newwww abodeee later - if time permits, mom said my room's been painted and the platforms donezoo! YAY!

**Tiesto keeeps me sane and alive! (of course you do too, babyface)

♥the trick is to keep breathing 3:19 AM

Sunday, July 27, 2008

NATIONAL DAY GETAWAY: BATAM WITH THE FAMILIA NO. 2 !

so its confirmed, i am going after all. I know i know, can't seem to make up my mind but well, i've been busy with all the packing and im pretty sure i'll be done by the time the 10th of aug comes. i have to cause im moving on the 15th ! So yay yay yay! looking forward to it, HOLIDAY INN Batam is super nice, the breakfast is the yummiest ! The SPA! oh mann, i need a massage ! and of course the company is gon' be great! Elfiee's family, VVVM family, Les&Alli's family, Cassy dearest and more i reckon! Wheee!!

11 more days !

♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:39 AM

Thursday, July 24, 2008

The whole damn day has been about WEEDS. a new day is here and it still is about WEEDS. no shocker there i know. I'm just glad i've something to watch till the rest of my guilty pleasures are back first week of sep or end sep. Grey's, OTH, Prison Break, Gossip Girl, Desperate Housewives. Mann, life sure hasn't been the same. Thank god for WEEDS and now the all new series which just aired in US and has like just 4 episodes, The Secret Life Of The American Teenager. I find the title a tad bit long though, and well i'm trying to get addicted to it, for my own good, really. However, it looks like one of em 'B' grade series. I mean there are some hotties init for sure. But the acting, bad. I can't quite tell if they are made to look fake or they really can't act for nuts. But the story lines ok, just ok. Hope it picks up. Considering how i was hooked to 7th Heaven. Creators of 7th heaven you see. Click this for the site! (type the title under search of course, and you can find most of the other shows there too)

Hmmm, visited the 'still-under-construction-home' today. Looking good, i can almost picture how my room's gon look like. Small though. =/ But it's ok, it's my lil space. And i don't mind at all. Definitely liking the convenience of the neighbourhood. Speaking of neighbourhood, i bumped into my future neighbourhood 'khaki' while having dinner with the parents at the coffeeshop which sells awesome food, i should add! (i really hope this doesn't work to my disadvantages of midnight binge eating, when i feel like it, and getting fat!!) Ok so where was i? Yes my 'khaki'..Brendan! :)) Stupid fella waved at me, but later smsed saying we better meet up when i officially move! Will do mister, 3 weeks time. You can follow me to makan when i have my midnight hunger pangs! Hurr! And talk me out of it or pass me a cigarette instead (wait, you don't smoke..good!). Oh speaking of which, I QUIT. (okk, STOP LAUGHING) I really did quit, i haven't touched a stick since monday? Yes monday. The last was with Vimal. I'm cutting costs and saving money. And on a better note, im trying to be health conscious. But its more about the moolah. I could save so much of fucking money from just quitting that habit altogether. Plus all that moolah's gon come in handy for 'SHINA'S TUCSON FUND'! So you people better be proud of me, esp you BABY! All this time trying to get me to quit while you were around, and NOW indirectly, you've actually got me to. By moving your ass half way across the globe that is.

Just made myself some yummylicious Cream of Chicken campbell soupie! yum yum yum! It's one of those hunger pangs, yet i don't feel all bloated. But i think that time of the month's almost near. Grrrrrr! And i've been quite an emo wreck the past couple of days. My emo-meter has been fluctuating quite a bit. I'm either in tears or am quite a happy chappy person. I reckon the PMS is working its way with me. Blahh!

OH did i mention i've to eat out for the next 3 damn weeks, at least till we shift and get to cook again! cause of the whole packing and shifting crap. mom and dad have laid down the STRICTLY NO COOKING rule. And its now that i feel the urge to cook quite a bit. :(( and i thought to myself earlier, IF i can't cook in my own home, make someone else's kitchen your kitchen and work your wonder. And whose kitchen did i pick?!? NONE OTHER than my darling Aunty Marg's place! Elfiee's mommy. Hahaha, she's gonna be all excited when i tell her i have grand plans to cook in her house. She's been wanting me to for the last 2 years? Heh, now that elfie's gone and she rarely utilizes her kitchen, i'll do her the honor of making it smell goooooood ! with my cooking of course. (and vini and natalieee, if the two of you are reading this, you guys have been HIRED, for my great cook-out..i'll need you two to do the washing up and cleaning oh and the setting of tables, cause i'm just the chef! haaa!) Guinea Pigs welcomed - ie: Castillo, Leslie, Cassy, Alli and Vimal. :)) Don't worry. Hurr!

I have bored you guys ENOUGH.
Weeds has STREAMED.
That leaves me to say,

TA !!

Have a good weekend ahead, as for me i'm crossing the borders. Bleahhh! =/

**Baby, if you're reading this HOLAAA! Su babygirl adora y le pierde tanto y las necesidades para tan ser besadas mal y para ser abrazadas por usted ;)))

xx

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:32 PM

You're the reason why i'm so set on the rest of my life

♥the trick is to keep breathing 1:39 AM

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

You are everything I wanted

The scars of all I’ll ever know

You saw all my pieces broken

This darkness that I could never show

If I told you you were right
Would you take my hand tonight?
If I told you the reasons why
Would you leave your life and ride?

-This ones for you love-

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:03 AM

Sunday, July 20, 2008

TWO WORDS : FUCKING BASTARD !!!

ONE MORE: DISAPPEAR !!

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Thursday, July 17, 2008

Wahh i so wanted to cook today can! i woke up with this sudden inspiration to cook and NO that doesn't happen often. Cause my Cookie Cook Book's been staring at me for the past week, the ones raine and stef got me. And i've been wanting to bake but never got down to it. So this morning i woke up and felt like cooking and called my mom to ask her to ring me when she's on her way home so i could meet her and grocery shop for my ingredients. HOWEVER, momsy got tired and decided to be driven home by daddy and said "can we do this tmr instead?". And i reminded her that "its not everyday i wake with this sudden inspiration to cook mommy!" :(((

I hope i get down to it tmr though. Cause i've two tuitions, i need to go down to popular to get my tuition kids assessment books and i'll only get home around 9ish after tuition. Wait, 9ish..ok im so not cooking. Everyone will get supper instead of dinner. SOB! and then saturday, i've an interview for the F1 GP Night Race and then Shalz birthday in the evening and i've to go get her birthday present before that! AIYOOOH!

I'm NEVER gonna COOK!

BOOHOO!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 6:17 AM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

He's such a sweetheart, really.

Explains why i'm still in love with him till this very day. :)) Makes me miss you more elfiee.

Anyway tuition was good. His name is Matthew, north indian and too cuteeee la! He's so adorable but by the end of the lesson he was being such a rascal already. I can imagine me running out of patience soon. And i'm known for my patience so if i do run out of it, it'll be something. I'm gonna be a busy bee the next couple of weeks. Exams are next month and boy have the syllabus change so much since i was in primary school. Did we do fractions at 8?? And sexual reproduction at 11? I don't think so, right??! It's no wonder the kids these days know so much, and mann when Triston goes to school, he's gon be a handful. Not like he already isn't. Speaking of which, I miss him. Shall pay him a visit sooon.

The internet is so darn resourceful ah! Really, the number of things i can find out with a click of the mouse without having to step outta home. Don't blame me for not getting out so much these days! I've been researching so much on this trip of mine i plan to take in Dec and i'm appalled at how much i've found out already! Now i've to send all these mails to elvis for him to take a look at, so he can let me know how its all gon work out. Mom and Dad are surprised at how useful i am when it comes to Elff but when they need me to get something done, i just sit and procrastinate. Heh, can't possibly sit on my ass and wait for an air ticket to land on my face, can i? The things i have to do. US why US?!?!

Aiteee, so there goes Batam plans and JB all cause of the shifting and packing and reno works i've to take a look at. 21 what! Don't recall contributing this much to the reno of my previous home or the packing even. Just used to sit around and let the parents deal with all the details from minor to major. Now that i actually have a say, im a blurr! My room looks nice, from the drawings and err this photoshop like design thingie where you make a 3D room the way you want it to. Something like SIMS but more real. The contractor did it of course, and its just how i want it to look. The paint i chose sucks though, so dull and boring. Not me, i'm loud and bright! Hmmmm....that detail i'll have to play around with. Moving in, in exactly a months time now. How time flies eh!? I'm actually gon miss this shithole of a place. I've way too many memories here! Since i was 16?? This is where the 'lovelove' started with me and elfiee. Hehe, ohh well..ive grand plans to create this whole shrine of elf and me in my new room. A lil corner with all our pics, or rather an entire wall filled with collages of us and him! You'll be a part of me homeeeee till you return booo!

Oh oh and i want a Audrey Hepburn kinda picture, but of me instead..on the wall. I know i know, how very narcissistic right? Can't help it. See la how, so much to do, so littleeeeee time. Pfffffftttttt!

*****
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY SHUZUUUUU!

:)))) Looking forward to your Blue&Gold/White themed Birthday Party come Sat-urr-dayy!

xxxxxxxxxxx

♥the trick is to keep breathing 8:15 AM

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

All that concerns me, that drenches my thoughts
Is the sensation that seeing you brought

No surprise i've woken up at this time. I tried to get off bed, much much earlier but to no avail. I've tuition in about four hours or so! P2 kid, English and Math. I've some teaching materials from my previous tution kid however due to my darn packing they are all in boxes!! Grrrr, now ive to unseal the sealed boxes and i can't even recall which box it's in and there are way too many of em. This is what i hate about early packing. Over the past couple of days i've been searching high and low for something and realize its already been packed. And my short term memory doesn't exactly serve me well so im pretty much useless !

Ok, i'm off to dig and ransack my cartons now. Hunger beckons too. Laterrrr!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 11:29 PM

Elfiee sent me this and said it reminded him of us. Haa, in a way it does. :))

♥the trick is to keep breathing 6:46 AM

Monday, July 14, 2008

im back.

not that big a deal. now i'm back to the monotonousness of it all, again. i've to continue with the packing and my laziness has gotten the best of me and is weighing me down quite effortlessly so.

i've so much to do and so little time to do it. i start giving tuitions on wed/fri and i do want more assignments, cause that would mean more moolah. and i need more moolah cause i'm saving up for my US trip come end of the year. and elfiee needs the dates soon cause he's gotta apply for leave which means i've to get my ass to school soon to pay my school fees for the term and get me my time table so i can finalize the dates. Tentatively 22nd Dec - 6th of Jan. Eve of Christmas, Christmas, Boxing Day, baby's birthday, New Years and our 3 year anniversary all rolled into those 2 weeks. Couldn't be any more perfect a time to be there with him. So i'm hoping my school time table doesn't clash. Please don't clash.

Mommy dearest and Daddyboo were upset with my plans of being away from the familia on Christmas. Moreover it will be our first Christmas at the new place and i've never been away from my family on Christmas. But they gave in to me anyhow knowing how adamant i get. But mom keeps persuading me to stay for Christmas at least. But that would mean baby will be all alone and i think i can sacrifice Christmas with the family to keep him company during the hols. It's a huge thing for me cause i hate being away from singapore or away from the family during the hols, esp since Christmas is the one holiday i look forward to every year. The anticipation that leads up to that very day. Sigh, can't believe half a year's just gone by in a flash. Before we know it, it's gonna be the end of 08 and on to 09 ! I hope time flies..

Been doing some research on airfares to the states and our itinerary when i get there. Elf suggested that we take a road trip or a flight down to Phoenix, LA, LV or San Diego. Do some shopping and sight seeing. Cause there's nothing much to do in Arizona, esp Tucson. So we've got to really make this work out with whatever communication we have. I'm counting on this trip, and its gonna work :)) im counting down the days till i seee you boo!

i'm off to bed. got errands to run tmr !

Nightssss

♥the trick is to keep breathing 8:07 AM

Thursday, July 10, 2008

SHINA HAS GONE FISHING !!!

IN KL! BE BACK AFTER THE WEEKEND :)

ADIOSSS AND HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND FOLKS!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:34 PM

ITS EMPTY. THIS WHOLE PLACE SPELLS YOU, YOU AND MORE OF YOU. YET IT FEELS SO EMPTY.

COME HOME. IF ONLY.

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before,
But you never really had a doubt.
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now.

xxxx

♥the trick is to keep breathing 1:43 PM

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

I'm waiting for WEEDS to stream and i'm all stoked cause my short getaway to KL has been confirmed! Fly-day is gonna be so flyyy! Wooooot! After much deliberation and contemplation we finally decided to get our asses there and party the weekend away and come back, very satisfieddd junkies! :))

MALAYSIA BOLEH !!!

***

Q: If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
A: Stoned later hysterical

Q: If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
A:
1. Turn back time
2. Be in Arizona this very minute
3. Then fast forward five years

Q: Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you’re really real?
A: why would I WONDER if i'm real??

Q: Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
A: I think we all are in some ways, i may deny it but yes it does scare me to know what the future has in store for me

Q: Would you change yourself for the person you love?
A: Everyday, i try. Only cause i love him enough and wanna be a better person, for me and for us.

Q: Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A: being able to be consumed with love for someone is an indescribable feeling, no doubt. being loved by someone, blessed.

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A: Time is just a factor, another obstacle to overcome. When time has passed and you know nothing can stop the two of you from loving one another, you know forever is what it is.

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
A: Platonic friends, for sure.

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A: I've my not-so-happy-moments, but im making the best of whats going on for me right now. Try not to complain..

Q: Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you’re around the guy/girl you like?
A: yes, and my heart still skips a beat when i think of my baby.

Q: Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A: Till this very day

Q: Who are currently the most important people to you?
A: My familia, his familia, my two bestfriends and of course Elvis.

Q: Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn’t?
A: Yes, the fine line between lovers and friends.

Q: What’s the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A: I only know the epitome of imperfection. There's no 'ideal perfect relationship'..it's about give and take, compromise

Q: Are you happy with your life?
A: Yes, i have everything i want and need.

Q: What type of friends do you like?
A: Even if you don't talk for weeks or months, when you do catch up its as if you guys never stopped talking to begin with, that bond you share with a friend. Taking comfort in knowing that even if we're all busy with our own lives, if and when you need them, they'd be there in a heartbeat. Those are the kinda friends i adore.

Q: Do you often wish that there are somethings you could change?
A: Wishing is all i can do.

Q: During a raining day, would you like a guy to walk with you, or to shelter you?
A: Walk with me, hand in hand.

Q: What would be the thing you dislike the most?
A: People who blatantly lie to your face

Q: What would you notice about people of the different gender?
A: How they carry themselves

**courtesy of Joanne's wordpress. :))

♥the trick is to keep breathing 3:16 AM

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

I REALLY DO !

Every morning, noon and night. :((

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Monday, July 7, 2008

This is what my babies get up to while i'm busy packing !

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Saturday, July 5, 2008

Good Sunday folks !

Today's agenda: PACK PACK PACK ! I've so much more to pack and i only have a month left before i officially move out of this shithole of a place. And i can't wait! I'm already planning my housewarming/poolside-warming (:

Ok, i've nothing much to say this afternoon other than the fact that i just stuffed my face with 2 ikea hotdogs! I'm a glut!

OK BYE.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:24 PM

Friday, July 4, 2008

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY BABYY!

Lucky you! It's the 4th of July and a day off work all because you're in the United States of America. It's been a few hours since i heard from the boy cause he's busy poker-ing (this time its got nothing to do with facebooks texas hold'em) at his friends place cause they are all on holiday tomorrow. ITS OK. On the 9th of August im pretty certain you'll be slogging at work while everyone on this end will be having a nice time off. :)) While i'm off to Batam with your familia! Holiday Inn baby! Getting reminded of the time we went to Batam with your family during the World Cup season. Mann the riot that went down there, fun times eh? But i'm looking forward to National Day Holiday in Batam cause KL may or may not work out. =/

It's a Fly-day and i've no plans. Home it is for me, the rest of the night. And i'm not whining!

Sleeeep beckons.

TA!

ps: i missss you elfieeee!

take me to SPRINGS @ SILVERBELL!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 2:11 AM

Thursday, July 3, 2008

I reckon me becoming a morning person now that the boy is in the states. He gets back from work right about this time and calls me and i always end up getting up and going online so i can talk to him. He woke me up to ask me how to make TEA! He hasn't had his daily dose in a couple of days and was having major withdrawal symptoms! Hurr. Ohh well, he managed it and he said it tastes AWESOME. I sure hope it does baby!

Got 2 job interviews coming up. Just for the next month or so, till i go back to school. Admin jobs are a bore but hey, i'm not gonna complain. Extra pocket moolah is always good. Esp now that i've spent most of my GST $$ on shopping. But im highly satisfied. I even got me a GUESS wallet. Like finally! YAY!

K-lerrrr entertainment time.

Gotta run!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 7:00 PM