Don`t lie
Promise everyday you`re gonna try
To make me feel like everything`s alright
Like I`m the apple of your eye
The month is coming to an end, and time is definitely flying by oh so quickly! Raine's 22nd is nearing, Steph's 21st then my very own 22nd which I have no plans to celebrate whatsoever. Just a short getaway with the love(s). :D Phuket is long long longg overdue. So if work doesn't get in the way then Phuket for my birthday otherwise I will just wait for Nithi's 21st in May to getaway with the cousins, sis and the lover - Casino Royale Style. Heh
I start work this week, tentatively. All the way to Chai Chee in the East! Thank heaven for the straight bus to work. I love long bus rides, so i guess i'll be indulging in them the next couple of months. Of course work is very close to where V works so yes you can spoil me rotten by picking me up from work or sending me from time to time. :) Busy bees we're gon become V! But the moolah rolling in will definitely be worth it, yes?? YES!
Alright. A 6000 word essay beckons me!
Ta!
♥the trick is to keep breathing 9:57 PM
PS: SORRY MOMMY.
So the much dreaded talk took place and as much as I dreaded it, it was better than expected and I am more than relieved now. :) I guess it's always good when the parentals are willing to sit down and listen and sort things out so that you get where they are coming from. Their perspective on matters and I obviously misunderstood their concerns for something else. I mean of course there are a handful that are still somewhat prejudice. But like Daddy said, we don't live our lives for others and I should do what makes me happy. Live my life for me and no one else. I am happy so the rest of them have to simply SUCK IT UP!At the end of the day, if they see me happy and I am sure they'd want to see me happy..they'd be happy for me. So case closed. Time to get on with life and I have more important things coming up. note to self: eat pray love.
♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:09 AM
Won't you walk through, bust in the door and take me away?
You'd think the family would be all supportive, despite the circumstances. But sometimes I wonder how far the support goes. It's kinda got its limits, I am guessing..from the over exaggerated reactions all round. How superficial can everyone get. How bias can all of you get? If this were anyone else, it wouldn't be that huge an issue, would it? Recall seeing me the past five years?? Our generation isn't as bad as your generation. In terms of setting high expectations. Come of it, we're living in the damn 21st century. How could this go to the extend of y'all wanting to ship me out of the country to keep me away from something that might possibly keep me happy. It's absurd. If that's what you guys want, then that's what you guys will GET. I will leave. And I won't look back. I am not as strong as Daddy was. He fought the only fight he knew and now everyone else is eating their own words. Me, me on the other hand? I'd love to be just like Daddy. I'm not sure how though. It may have been too soon but I reckon it isn't the time everyone's concern about. As it is, I have enough going on. I did not need this..So much for family. Thank god the cousins and the sis get it. The rest of you, no comments. None at all. I'm just glad Dad isn't part of this whole saga.
♥the trick is to keep breathing 3:01 AM
We choose our grievances the same way we choose our sins. you think ? OK. so there's just way too much hate and resentment overwhelming me at this point i am beginning to get scared. it bothers me so much because its so unhealthy. its not like me to hate to such an extend or even think about it and let it rule my thoughts but is so has and its disgusting. what's even more disgusting is the content of my thoughts. so perhaps that time you granted me isn't exactly helping. three days versus two days. i vote for the three days that were much happier. i was so stoned those two days, i wasn't a very pretty sight. but thanks again. for the space and what not. i may still need it, only because i want to spare the faint hearted ones like you. but i may be mistaken. you're so brave and so giving and forgiving...i think you may just be god sent. an angel in disguise...my angel. you make me want to forget some, you make me want to remember some.
♥the trick is to keep breathing 11:39 AM
Shinaaa