Scars For Me & Souvenirs For You

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

I will be wearing that smile you gave me for the longest time ♥

Happiness has unknowingly creeped up on me. Could i be happier? No. I am truly all smiles as of late. Christmas was beyond gorgeous. It was better than i had expected it to be. Spending it with dear ones is the best way to spend it. I guess i really soaked up the Christmas spirit way in advance. This would be the first December in 3 years i didn't dread or sulk over. :D I think i made the best decision one can make. I only thank the man up above for showing me the light and above all giving me the strength to overcome it with such grace.

It's the eve of New Years and I am leaving 2008 behind without much thought as to how it went. I have no regrets but am only thankful for all the trials and tribulations i went through. 2009 will be a better year or so we all pray. But it's up to us to make it happen, no? So once again i will not give 09 much thought and simply take it a day at a time. New years resolution?? hmmm. same shit,different year? Haha..to quit smoking amongst other things. But this is truly at the top of my list. Hope the rest of you have made your list of resolutions and keep it! ;)) You might need it to remind you. With that said..

HAPPY NEW YEARRRR!!!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:29 AM

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Zoukout - Check. (and i had an awesome fucking time! can't believe i missed out on it all these years. silly me, silly silly me)
Twilight - Check check (watched it twice in the cinemas, and i had to drag the same poor soul with me both times, and the poor soul slept at different parts of the movie two days in a row, but CLAIMED it was worth the watch.)
Christmas - Check (for preparations at least.)

So the first two went just as plannned and im pretty darn sure that Christmas will be just as sweet. The ghost of Christmas goth paid me an early early visit this year and left me a post-it while i was asleep weeks back, and it read,

Dear shina, i will spare you the misery this year but that don't mean you gloat in happiness for long, cause i will come back to haunt you next year and maybe i won't wait till Christmas. In other words, Merry Christmas. Be good. Signed off, Ghost of Christmas Goth.

Of course i was blithe. I had to be right? I was off the hook. YAY! So here i am on the eve of Christmas. Yes it's 2.09AM and it is officially the eve. So Merry Christmas-Eve. Ha, and i can't wait for midnight mass. Cause it hasn't been the same for years now. That warm fuzzy feeling i get being around close and loved ones...the yearly traditions. To a house party after mass (no clubbing. i do NOT club on Christmas and last year was my first and last) where we drink wine and eat cheese. Yes believe it or not, we do. Ok we try. Give me cheddar. I hate anything else. And no i do not go home drunk cause Christmas morning is the one morning i wake up in 365 days and not dread. Oh i am so looking forward to it. I wrapped my presents last night, and i actually took the time to wrap them pretty. They totally compliment the Christmas tree. Ok just how many times have i repeated the word Christmas in the post excluding the last one?! Geez cheese..

Oh also i managed to get my dress, which is NOT black. FOR ONCE. but has a hint of black of course, got me heels and accessories too. and i have to do my wall collage today! No more procrastinating. Finally developed the photos. So expensive la. But whatever, they make my room prettier. Everyone i know and who are dear to me are on the wall, and yes that includes you too in case you're wondering.

VINI AND CASTI - it wasss good spending even an hour with you guys today over lunch. I missed you guys terribly much. thankkkk you for popping by! hope you found your shoe casti and your dresss vini! :))

Am gonna curl up with my book now. Later alligators.

XX

♥the trick is to keep breathing 9:39 AM

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Edward Cullen: I don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore.
Isabella Swan: Then don't.

Ok, i know there has been a huge hype about the movie Twilight (did i mention the movie had an excellent cast) and it seems somewhat overrated. But lets just say it deserves to be, for very obvious reasons. By the end of the movie i was chanting 'everybody needs an Edward Cullen' in my head. Right up till i got home. I was even talking to myself. Saying the quotes out aloud on the drive back home. I think he is drug. HE can be my very own brand of heroine. It's not just about how hot he looks or whatever, but it's the whole package. I wouldn't want a Robert Pattinson.

I just want Cullen himself.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:17 AM

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

SHE THOUGHT SHE COULD BUY HAPPINESS BY THE BOTTLE. AND SHE (MOMENTARILY) DID.

I am glad its Tuesday already. I have to wait another two days. I cannot make it. I need to go shopping on Friday! You better get your damn ass out cause you need to get you something. I want a time machine underneath my christmas tree this year. Oh and also an ipod nano chromatic - in purple. thank you. I am done with the Guess bags and wallets. Got enough of those for my birthday. Coach hasn't served me well, just yet. It's still where it last was when it arrived, and i'm leaving it there for a reason. If someone could please transport Edward Cullen/Robert Pattinson to my humble abode i will be most grateful. I cannot find a single soul who doesn't love him. Also he looked like crap in Harry Potter. I knew the face was familiar but beautiful this time round. If not there is always Ed Westwick.

Next year i am buying me three tickets to travel. I want to go to India, Indonesia and Italy. Just like how Elizabeth Gilbert did. In pursuit of pleasure, devotion and balance. And slowly happiness will creep up on me. It secretly has..which explains why i have left the FUHC. and i am happy i have, but sooner or later we all have to leave the club. Thats what people do when they go to rehab or AA's, right? They go there to come out sober and happier. And so have i. Though it wasn't real, technically. Haha. But i'm dead serious about the travelling though...oh how i wish. I'll start small. Thailand first, in Feb. The rest can wait!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:52 AM

Thursday, December 11, 2008

You are finally legal nowww! Wheee. haha. Have a blasting good timeee and may all good things come your wayy love. God bless sweetheart.. ♥♥♥

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I'm a happpy girl. :D Last night was a blessing in disguise and unexpected. thank you. Now i will keep my fingers crossed and pray saturday comes quick. I don't mind the change of plans, in fact i initiated the change of plans..but i want it that way and like it better. ANYHOOo i am craving for sting ray lei, and have been since god knows when. I wanttttttt! pishh. eight four eight it is.

Later alligators.

xx

♥the trick is to keep breathing 5:25 AM

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving. I didn't want to destroy anything or anybody. I just wanted to slip quietly out the back door, without causing any fuss or consequences, and then not stop running until I reached Greenland.

(3 words 8 letters.)

♥the trick is to keep breathing 3:51 AM

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Now i know why the Lord took his day off on Sunday. That must be the day he personally greets his favorites.

I got this book along with Eat Pray Love and Marley & Me on my Saturday shopping spree with B and Vi. Or rather the first two were gifts from Vi and the latter was bought by me. (thanks Vi, books always make a good gift) I'm already done with The Wednesday Letters and i'm all teared out. I cried three times through out the entire read and by the time i finished it i was sobbing, quite literally. Sad and heartwarming. It carried such strong family values and teach you so much about life's lessons. Something i could entirely relate to. Now i'm compelled to begin writing my own Wednesday Letters ♥. Own it if you loved The Notebook, it kinda reminded me of it in many ways.

Anyhow i know i will get through the next 10 days cause i got through 5 months. Wait i've gone through more than those 5 months. And it has made me a strong girl. I'm a big girl now, and big girls don't cry or so they claim. But i know myself and i will pull through. hell i've more ahead of me and if i can't get through this then whatever else ahead of me is gon kill me for sure. So i need to suck it up and take it in my stride. and you should too my dear. there is way way way more ahead and i want it for you cause you want it and you deserve it cause you have worked so hard for it. :))

♥the trick is to keep breathing 11:22 AM

Friday, December 5, 2008

tell me something.something you shouldn't.

ITS FRIDAY! three more days and im gonna be miserable :(( Well this weekend seems to be packed with things to do starting tonight! I've got a Sangeet to go for! Can't wait. Tomorrow will be going down to beach road to run some errands and then if i can squeeze in a lil bit of shopping time i'd be so pleased. Church after, which is a must must must! And off to Adams Road for Sting Ray! :D Yay. i've been craving la. Sunday would be Triston's 2nd Birthday Party! Going to town to get his present with the sis and then off to his place for a BBQ. Monday would be Daddy's birthday, speaking of which i haven't gotten him anything. Yikes! tomorrow i shall.

I am sooo glad its a public holiday on Monday and i hope daddy isn't working. But i reckon he might since he usually does on public holidays. Esp during Hari Raya and Diwali. :(
*****

*8 DAYS TO ZOUKOUT!

*13 DAYS TO TWILIGHT!

*20 DAYS TO CHRISTMAS!!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:45 AM

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

My heart didn't race like i thought it would have! i am so proud with the progress i have made and the very little impact you make on me.

anyhoo, i am a sick sick sick chicken really. It's been three days and I haven't gotten any better. i resisted the urge not to buy fags but the devil in me gave in to the temptations and i think that kinda got me feeling worse. :((

I went prawninggg! For the first time. I caught two damn prawns. How exciting right? One hour and two buggers. nb. but i want to go againn la. its like just across where i livee. Khatib officially rockss panties! i love me neighbourhooood. buddy is my new hang out. the cakesss and the mushroom soup not forgetting the awesome home made iced tea! YUM factor. why is it you crave for all the things you shouldn't be eating when you're sick? like ice cream!! i have an entire tub in my fridge and i have been eyeing it since but i know i'll just eff myself up even more if i did sink my teeth into it. bleah. i want to get well! and i also wanna watch TWILIGHT! the boy in it, so yummy. i kept watching the trailers after i got home from lisa's place. HIS EYES. wahhhh. really mann.

kk, i need strawberry milk if i am not getting ice cream.

TA!

*10 days to ZOUKOUT!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 4:00 AM