Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight


I am conflicted. I need answers I can't find. You're not doing a very good job convincing me.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 11:58 PM

YOU and ME and the bottle makes THREE tonight.

My first day off since I started working. I thought of doing something productive with my day but I reckoned with the thought and figured sleeping in is just as productive. Especially when you're catching up on lost sleep. Well I didn't waste the entire day doing just that cause it's now 2.39pm in the afternoon. The heat is sweltering, I have a pool at my disposal, some tanning oil somewhere in my room, a good read (ie: my twilight saga, yes i am at it again!) but of course there's just one thing missing a martini or a cosmo. I think I've been subconsciously detoxing myself cause I can't quite recall when was the last time I held a bottle of beer or a anything alcoholic for that matter. With that said, I am definitely doing Ladies night this Wednesday. YES I AM! I haven't been to a single ladies night since 2009 started and this week calls for one. Caroline my Aussie colleague is leaving this Thursday back to Sydney and we're doing a girls night out to get smashed. The only reason I was up for it...NO work on Thursday! woot! :))

TWENTY days and counting. Xx

♥the trick is to keep breathing 11:33 PM

show me what i'm looking for.

I have been meaning to blog for the longest time but I simply haven't had the time to. It's nearing a month since work started and its been nothing but physically and mentally draining. I guess I'm not used to it. Also cause my body clock is messed up but now that's fixed, it's set for six hours! It does not matter what time it is I sleep..be it 9pm or 10pm (yes, I do hit the sack as early as that) I wake up within six hours. Bleah. I used to have four cups of coffee a day, the first week I started. Now I try not to have a cup at all. And I get through the entire day effortlessly. :) My colleagues are an awesome bunch. That too cause we're all around the same age group. My boss is Australian and he is far from the sort who's easy going. He comes down hard on us and that's cause he wants to see perfomance. Definitely a nice guy still. It's a saturday and as much as I want to actually utilize it, I'm not gonna cause I have work tomorrow! :( But it's all good. I actually don't mind going back tomorrow cause I get Monday off. Guess I won't be having the Monday blues like the rest of you. ;p

Lorraine's 22nd birthday was awesome! That's one down and one more to go. We're exactly a week away from her 21st! I'm stoked. And I also hope someone swaps my shift with me. *keeps her fingers crossed*

It's raining and I'm gonna snuggle up all alone on my couch and catch up on One Tree Hill and Gossip Girl! yes babies! It's officially out after what seemed like a long hiatus. And for those who watch WEEDS, that airs in JUNE.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:55 AM