Scars For Me & Souvenirs For You

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

shina saw the sunshine, but then it rained;
reminding her of him, she looked in the mirror, cheeks tear stained.
she closed her eyes and slowly took it all in;
but then, thinking of it all just seemed too much a fuckin sin.

a sudden dream as she felt his lips on her neck;
she wondered as she turned if she'd become a complete wreck.
then she faced him as he smiled & wiped away her falling tear;
he brought her close as she whispered 'where've you been, you silly kessler'.

That would be surreal. Cause i had this even more bizarre dream this morning. And i kept waking up from it cause i wanted to stop dreaming it but every time i fell back into a deep slumber it'd just continue from where it last ended. I was not enjoying it, though it was a pretty one i must say. I had a dream that Elvis and I got married. This was the first time in three years i dreamed it. I have talked about it, day dreamed about it even but never felt it like this. It was too real which is why i wanted to wake up from it. The simple gown, he in an all white suit. The minimal guest list mainly consisting my closest friends and family. Suren the best man, Lorraine my maid of honor. Me walking down the isle and i see Elvis looking at me from the altar and i get that warm fuzzy feeling within. It was beautiful. Up till the point where we exchanged our vows but there was no wedding rings involved. I found that weird. It's not like the rings were misplaced..but that whole part was skipped. It just went from the vows to "you may now kiss the bride." That was when i woke up. And i was lying in bed trying to decipher my dream. What did that mean exactly?

oh and did i mention how i am not a huge fan of the married life no more. I see myself very unmarried for a longg longg time. Well i will go ponder more. I need to clean the house and get out. Got my M5 tutorial to go for. I dreadd.

I'll give Ladies Night a pass tonight. I went to the doctor and he said most of my injuries were emotional.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:02 AM