The F1 GP was drained every last ounce of energy from me, literally at that. Not gonna complain though cause I had a Ferrari good time, needless to say. However i'm disappointed with Alonso's win and what happened to Massa. Sigh, Hamilton came in third..so that will make up for it. I guesss, now i'm having F1 withdrawal symptoms. My weeekend was neatly planned and every minute spent at the Marina Bay Circuit was simply ORGASMIC.

Bought me some nice Ferrari merchandise - a female polo tee and a ferrari flag, thats for elvis. If i had more moolah on me, i would've got you the tee as well however i know you collect flags too. But i'll give you this in exchange for the Brazil flag..can? hehe

Well thanks to the lack of sleep and an overdose of alcohol over the weekend i am now drained and sick. The throats been burnt by the endless amount of shots, courtesy of Riaan and KK. Of course lorraine and i thought revenge would be sweet however their revenge was sweeter. asswipes.

well, i have my insurance exam to study for and loads of other assignments to complete before their due. I have the next 2 days free from school and it'd be perfect to catch up on my sleep and study. so off i am now...

♥the trick is to keep breathing 6:30 AM

you know what surprised me? he remembered. something as peculiar as that. and also because he mentioned it so randomly. i could not stop smiling to myself after. i still am, thinking about it. and this led me to an adventitious thought altogether.

since there are unconfirmed plans of him coming down early next year i was thinking if we should take a short trip whilst he's back visiting. over the weekend, just me and him. it'll be like our last and only holiday away alone...together. I so want to, so badly. I mean yes, we will have all the time in the world when i go and visit, taking road trips and flights out. but thats WHEN i go there which will only be next year. It'll be nice to relive those moments in KL. I want to create new ones we can talk about years from now, like how you randomly brought up that one silly moment we shared out of a zillion others.

*ponder ponder*

i have an 'ANYTHING' about communications essay which is due this monday, and i am STILL researching, STILL procrastinating, STILL wondering what to write about. COMMUNICATION is so wide. I need to break it down..non verbal, verbal? intercultural communications? wtf. seriously.

i shall go torture myself now.

GET BUSY. KNN

♥the trick is to keep breathing 6:07 AM

THE MUCH AWAITED COACH LEGACY HAS FINALLY ARRIVED. :D

THE KAYPO !









I LOVE IT. SIMPLY ADORE IT. COULDN'T STOP SMELLING IT. HA, FELT LIKE A

COMPLETE PSYCHO. I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE HEART TO USE IT JUST YET.


BABY, THANKS FOR SPOILING ME ROTTEN. YOU REALLY ARE THE BEST,

PAMPERING ME WITH GIFTS OF SORTS. I RECKON IT STOPS..DON'T WANT

YOU GOING BROKE CAUSE OF ME BUT I KNOW YOU'VE BEEN PAMPERING

YOURSELF TOO. HAHA, ME GOT YOU SOMETHING AS WELL, ITS ON THE

WAY TO ARIZONA NOW, SHOULD BE THERE BY NEXT MONDAY :)) HOPE

YOU'LL LIKE IT. IT'S TYPICALLY YOU. HURR HURR.


I LOVE YOU.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 6:07 AM

all of the things we want each other to be we never will be, we never will be.


I don't know what to say. Yes you have made me feel this way before, when you were still here. It's like despite my best efforts, it was never good enough. I was never able to live up to your expectations. But at the same time, I knew deep down i was a good girlfriend. You never fail to belittle me. Don't get the wrong idea, but i can see you've been making an effort ever since you left. I'm not talking materialistic stuff. You can buy me all the fancy things in the world, but some things in life are just priceless. Your love for instance, if i could buy that from you i would. Unfortunately i can only earn it. And you make me feel like i'm not worthy of it. I mean, am i not?

I made this choice to be with you, and believe me i gain nothing from being in it for another 2 years esp with you being halfway across the globe. I could very well not be with you, live my life not giving a care what others or you think for that matter. One less person to live my life for, one less person to worry about, one less persons feelings to consider before i say or do anything. BUT and its HUGE BUT here..i made this decision. That its not even about all of that. It's about what we've shared, what we've created and nurtured. And no i'm not thinking that it's waste to throw it all away just cause you're going away cause a 3 year long relationship is no big deal these days. It's more like nothing will change the way i feel for you, and i mean nothing. No one. You can be there for the next 5 years (as much as i'd hate that) and i know i'd still be loving you the same. This choice i've made, i've made with thorough considerations. The repercussions and all. And i am willing to take that risk, cause if i don't then i'll never know what the future holds.

You can't prevent what you can't predict.

So do not make judgements and make me feel like i'm the worlds most useless girlfriend. I know i can try harder. I'm not perfect but i try, EVERYDAY. I make sacrifices and will do so with no qualms. But please understand my situation.

PLEASE baby.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 1:02 AM

just shut up & drive.

I'm on to the 5th week of school now. There's so much to do and so little time left. I procrastinate far too much for my liking. I've been distracted much lately. For highly obvious reasons. Some times i feel like giving up altogether but then again i'm known to be a quitter. So imma quit being a quitter and focus on the bigger picture here. It's not like things are bad. It's just a damn state of mind i'm in. It's gonna be okay, i know it will.

The weekend was a quiet one. Went to accompany lorraine and Raj at his grandpa's wake. I'm sorry for your loss Raj. May your grandpa's soul Rest In Peace. We all know he's in a better place now, watching down on you and your family at this very difficult time. Cheerrr up! :)) I'm just a 10min walk away, if you need anything.

Mann, i have work tomorrow. Tutorial till 5. Grrr, work at 630pm. Dang dang dang! I really need a holiday. A good break. Now i'm wondering if i should go away next month cause it would mean i've to miss two days of school and its the week of my submission. And i will have to pass it to someone to hand it in for me if i decide to go on the trip which means i have to rush the entire thing. My mom oviously doesn't want me missing school. So now i'm thinking if i should just save the OCT 1st moolah and use it for a much much deserved trip with the crew in December over the weekend. KOH SAMUI? I want la. I neeed to check out the
Full Moon Party. Plus im pretty sure that by Dec i'd be mad out of my wits from the studying and exams etc. And a holiday to a nice beach resort with the friends will be PURRR-FECT. moreover our trip together has been LONG long overdue. The last was KL was it? goodness.

OKK, i shall not read too much into that and get meeeself distracted. But its making me HAPPY already. hehe

okk, me off to get started on my Social and Behavioural Studies essay liao.

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♥the trick is to keep breathing 7:47 AM

HIATUS personified.

I'm still coughing like a mad biatch. I feel a tad better since Tues but the cough has just gotten worse and i can only think of one reason why that may be. bleah. blame myself, i shall. I need to take better care of myself, otherwise i'm never gon recover and i can't afford to be sick and miss school like I have two days straight. damn flu bug.knn. + + + i have all these assignments to finish up, exams in Nov first week. Study break end Oct. panic stricken. and amidst all this my mommy dearest is planning a short weekend getaway. but its not phuket anymore, cause of all the mess thats going on in Thailand so we're still deciding where. I am assuming its gotta be a hell lot nearer, and where might that be..MALAYSIA. but whatever, its quality familia time. so let it be wherever that takes me. :))

I'm one day away from getting my filthy hands on my gorgeous Coach bag from mine truly - elfiee baby. Can't wait ! and of course all these other gifts you've been pampering me with. and we aren't even celebrating anything yet. Unpredictable, you are boy. thanks for transferring moolah to me to go see the doctors earlier this week and insisting that i stayed home to rest. thanks for checking up on me in the middle of work to see if i had taken my medication and eaten. thanks for being a complete sweetheart. i love you.

i have work in a couple of hours and i need to eat and drug myself up. and have a mini driving lesson with KK and Raj at my condo. :) hehe. free lessons with a suzuki swift, that is SO NOT made for drifiting, thank you.

Ta !

♥the trick is to keep breathing 9:48 PM

MY happy place is VERY unhappy right now.


'Veronika decides to die' at home last night would've been a much much better option. However, i don't regret getting out of the house spontaneously. :) Met and boogied with the girls after what seemed like an eternity. Everyone's at Amara tonight for a drinking session but i've opted out cause i'm way too tired and the alcohol is gon work to my disadvantage more than anything else.

So this is when a good DVD or a good read will come in play. BUT the damn weather is being a bitch. It's raining mad and i want to go down and get me a movie. So thank gawd, for the rental machine is 24hrs. I'll go when the rain goes down.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 6:20 AM

SHOP-A-HOLIC ANONYMOUS



enough retail therapy for two months love. you've
done enough shopping to last you

half a year. But thanks for all the things you

got me as well :)) can't wait to get my

hands on them. tee hee. ♥

speaking of which i'm running out of ideas on what to get him for his bday/christmas and our 3 year anniversary come december. Since today marks the 1st of September, i realize we're THREE months away from the end of the year, can y'all believe it. How time flies. It's scary. It really sucks though. Cause that would mean i would've been 3 months away from seeing him too. I haven't quit lamenting you see. If you guys were me, you would too.

remember me mentioning Factory Girl?? well i didn't get head nor tail. It was a true story but i wish i understood it. Either that or i must have been really distracted. Hmm, but watched Oh in Ohio last night and it was hilarious. Kinda reminded me of me, hahaha. FOR NOW. always? rarely? OR never? RARELY. tskkk ! I get a high just thinking about it. yet another tsk tsk. okok, so out of agenda here. I got a manicure today, at a neighbourhood near me. hehe, 18$ for a classic mani, i thought it was worth it plus i felt the urge to be pampered a lil so went ahead with it. OPI colours are yummy right? i got a purplish black from the INDIA range. Such screaming colours.

I NEED A BOOK. i want to readdddddd ! wait, no if there's anything i should e reading now its my LECTURE NOTES. pishhhh !

okkkkkk, gotttta go. need to walk my dog..

HAPPPPY 2 AND 3/4 YEARS LOVE. hehe. ;))

♥the trick is to keep breathing 6:35 AM

JUST FOR LAUGHS

10 people

1) Lorraine
2)Stephanie
3)Elvis
4)Priya
5)Vini
6)Vimal
7)Suren
8)Castillo
9)Natalie
10)Ariel

Who is no.6 having relationship with?
this is one a highly confusing question ! but after having read vini's blog im assuming it is still rekz?!

Is no.9 male or female?
very much female ! but part gay ! ;)

If no.7 and no.10 are together, will it be a good thing?
errr, they very well could be since they're always fighting with one another !! such loveee they have for one another.

What is no.2 studying?
Steph, she's a working women !!

When was the last time you had a chat wid no.3?
me baby ! err a couple of hours ago before he tucked in :)

Does no.1 have any siblings?
uhhuh. 2 older siblings, she's the baby in the family.

What kind of music does no.8 like?
anything he can groove his ass to

Will you woo no.3?
anytime, everytime, all the time. he has my heart !

How about no.7?
oh yes, why not? elfs bestfriend. haha

Is no.4 single?
very much.

What is no.5's surname?
Vincent Henry

What is no.4's hobby?
reading and writing

Do no.5 and 9 get along?
yesss they doo ! how can they not, part of the familiaa la!

Where is no.10 studying?
TP.

Say something casual abt no.1
BFF !! she's the most honest and trustworthy friend you can find. i love her to bits.

Have you tried developing feelings for no.5?
yes!! but i love silus more than i love her. sorry girl !

Where does no.9 live?
Tampinesss ! but currenly Admiralty right? heh

What colour does no. 2 like?
Purpleeeee like me :)

Are no.1 and 5 best of friends?
haha, no

Does no.7 like no.2?
wahaha, suren and steph? nope

How did u get to know no.2?
sec schooooool and lorraine !

Does no.9 hav any pets?
hamstersssss

Is no.7 the sexiest person on earth?
HELL YEAH. hahahahahaa

What is no.10's favourite line?
"pupu i love you!"

Do you think you will never hav a crush on no.6?
GAWD. never.

Does no.8 find you funny?
DUH !! lol

Will no.5 marry you?
perhapsss, she might.

No.9 and no.4 is drowning who will you save? (only one)
ohoh, natttt, ill have to save my sisss !

Express no.2 in one word.
ECCENTRIC.

Do you think no.3,4 and 5 will be by ur side for life?
yes. i truly believe they will !!!

Wat if no.10 and no.6 gets married?
HA. biggest jokes.com for sure

Will you kiss no.1?
yes! hehe

Do you love no.8?
yessss, completely adore him to bits !!

How abt no.5?
of courseeeeee i do. ;)

♥the trick is to keep breathing 5:33 AM