Scars For Me & Souvenirs For You

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

time is a luxury you [i - ME] don't have ! or so you claim my love.

while showering i was just thinking, and thinking hard. i never quite liked the idea of having someone call me up via the phone just to wake me, i just thought of it as lame for the below mentioned reasons. I could never fathom why people would resort to wake up calls. Unless of course you do not have an alarm clock, but i reckon that if you do have a phone, cell phone then perhaps there might be an alarm of some sort in it as well? I mean i use the shittiest phone this planet has to offer..the one with an antenna (haha, ya so not funny la!) and it still has an alarm. AND if you can wake up to someone's phone call, doesn't that mean you're waking up to some form of sound. the kind an alarm makes, well close enough la. SO WHY? why would you get someone to give you a wake up call? Now to all those 'cupid-struck-lovers', the instant respond to that would be.."you're the last thing i think about before i sleep and i want you to be first person i think about when i wake (which should happen subconsciously if you ask me) hence i want to hear your voice, first thing when i am up." ????? BLEAH! really!!? ok here's when i come into play...

I give elvis wake up calls EVERYDAY. and i mean everydamnday. since i can last recall. Even when he was here, and i thought it'd end there. I mean he has his mom who sits at his bed, nudging him every five minutes to get up. (even if a bomb were to go off, elf would die in his sleep, sad to say) And when i'm at his place, his mom gets a break from those annoying inbetween5minswakeupnudges. that get oh so exhausting and make you want to strangle him. but do you call that love? (mind you, this had nothing to do with the above mentioned, we aren't one of those couples, thank gawd) who knows. perhaps. now that loveeeee obviously bridges from here to the damn united states of ARIZONA la. he is half way across the globe, and isn't it about time he be a man and learn how to wake up on his own? NO. perhaps not. See it just gets really annoying, with the time difference and how i have to set my alarm just to wake him up in the early hours of the morning (3 or 4AM) just to ring him. OR how i've to go to the ladies during work or be excused during tuition even. and its really ok, if he picks up within the first 2 calls or so. But did i mention how elf might die in his sleep if a bomb goes off? It takes close to an hour to get him to answer, hence i start calling early just so he can wake up on time. This eats into my sleep, and once again its ok now that i'm pretty much nocturnal but what about when i go back to school? His response, learn to live with it. (he giggles right after) HELLLO, elvis!! please ah, funny to you but not to me. If i made a deal with god and got him to swap our places i think you would've BAILED A REALLY LONG LONG LONG TIME AGO! HIRE someone. or if 2 effing alarm clocks aren't enough, get 20!! how long more. how fucking long more? what if i wasn't around(not that i'd have it that way), what if your mom can't make those calls?! ERRRRRR, your other girlfriends gon' make those calls? I highly doubt it.

I love you, but this. You call it love, but i call it madness, (its not even about wanting to hear my voice first thing in the morning, though most people keep telling me that that could be the only reason why you make me call you everyday, HELL NO, so not you!) in a oh so twisted way. It's been a month, and i love hearing your voice. But i also like you to be the one calling me, like when you've woken up,it's a lot nicer and doesn't eat into my sleep that much. YES, im selfish, but so are you.

I'm not mad. Just a lil upset at how far this has gone. I was just frustrated, hanging on the phone from the time tuition ended right up to Starbucks, in the queue waiting for my coffee, sat down finished half of it..amidst random talk still hanging on the phone and hearing the damn phone ringing but no one answering it. an hour later, i gave up. for the first time in a month i gave up calling. after all you're risking your job being late. I'm not to blame, often times i've been blamed but i'm not taking that shit ANYMORE.

with that said, i will leave this town just to sleep underneath your bed..

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