A contemptuous narcissist, who believes that happiness,
comes to those who truly want it. –It’s in your hands.
You choose how you live this life and you only live it once.
You either make it or break it.
And so it begins; the raving, ranting and whining about my oh so miserable love life. First of all, it wouldn't be that bad if i was not in a relationship, cause then there's only want thing i can whine about and that's being lonely. Secondly there's nothing i can say for myself if I AM in a relationship but it feels as if i am not in one. I cease to exist to the one i love. Now that's just sad, no? When i got back to this, I only thought of happy things, a happy ending to a new beginning. A clean slate, for the two of us. It's OK, if you don't want to be bothered, but there is some kinda limit la. Really. See, here's me trying to make the same effort i made where i last left off. No less than before. Wanting to spend time with you, make up for lost time. (5 weeks to be exact) Hmmm, i think there should be more effort from you, but it's really ok..cause no two people put in 50-50 when it comes to effort cause then the relationship would be perfect. So I put in more, and all you have to do is play your effing part, boy(f*ckin)friend. Ok, so i am ranting and venting. I am super upset more so pissed. I was sad at first, but now i just feel sorry for myself all over again. NONO, i didn't say i am gonna leave you..don't get me wrong. THINK with your effing head maybe even your heart (where you claimed ill always be) and not with your damn dick. I'm done here. Off to have MACS, here with you. Just cause our plans out didn't work out. Thank god for Ben&Jerry's at the very least. I think that made my night, a lil. I had a 'FAB' weekend. Hope you guys did too.
`Time to bite my teeth and grind the pain, only because i said, I Love You.