Scars For Me & Souvenirs For You

Thursday, December 6, 2007

time check: 2.51AM

I should be fast asleep, but I got back not too long ago from supper and pool with lorraine dearest, her darling, Raj, his brother and a friend of theirs. Went driving around aimlessly or rather illegally for abit (raine, raj and his brother that is) then headed down to Orchid Country Club for some Pool and supper. I am sick sick sick, staying home didn't feel like it'd do me much good since i was already feeling like a complete pig from taking my meds and sleeping all day. Hence I decided to head out for a bit, since the bf was out with his section mates for dinner. He joined us after to fetch me back and now is here.

SIGHS. I'm not so sure anymore. Bleah! I went to the library recently. Needed to get this brain of mine a tad bit stimulated. Feel its been dead for some time now. Borrowed three books, very randomly...

OK, i'll get back to why I even started the topic about my escapade to the library and the books i borrowed tmr. The bf is bugging me to sleeep.

Night night.

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Ok, so where was I? Me borrowing 3 random books. One of which is, 'The 100 Simple Secrets of Great Relationships'.

Alright alright, i can almost hear you guys laughing. Not that I thought this book was going to help, but it wouldn't hurt to just read it, no? Anyhow, the point being..I am in Chapter 18 now, and 16 out of 18 simple secrets kinda applied to my (love) life. Do ya'll think that we fuss too much about this one aspect of our lives? when we should be fussing over more rewarding things? Ok, that was just a thought. Back to what I was saying. Here's one of the secrets (not so much a secret, i think) i thought of sharing.

**Imagine two people working on an important project. If the top priority of the project is to complete some specific assignment, you might put one person in charge and assign the two different tasks depending on their abilities. As long as the project is successfully completed, it doesn't matter if one person does a better job or is more commited to the assignment. But what if the top priority of the project is to have the team members like and respect each other? Then putting one person in charge will likely invite feelings of jealousy. And if one person tries harder than the other, feelings of resentment will surely follow. A relationship is, of course, just such a project. Relationships crumble under the weight of imbalance. Neither person can be more important. Neither person can be more involved or commited. Neither person can make all the decisions. Neither person can make all the sacrifices. In the project that is a relationship, no one gets top billing because without two equals there is no relationship.**

Well, there. So basically it doesn't only take 2 hands to clap. There has to be some form of balance. I see no balance where I am, at all. No compromise, no sacrifice, none. Love isn't enough. There's more to it then just the 'I love you' and 'I miss you'. So what if you do? Does it even show? Right? I mean, sometimes I wonder why he loves me? Or why does he want to be with me? Yet, see the one he loves hurting or unhappy. I'll never understand.

ANYHOOOO, it's the 7th of December!

HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY TRISTON ! :)

Can't believe it's been a year already. Time flies, and see how you've grown!

7th of December 2006

Recent Pictures, he's taken after his mommy. Such a cam-baby!

His birthday celebrations tomorrow, heading out to shop for his pressie with my mommy later! :)

Will upload his birthday pics after tmr!

Have a great weekends lovelies! OH *sulks* and enjoy ZOUKOUT! i've a flight at 5am sunday morning, so i'll be rotting at home while ya'll a partying it out

:( Bleah!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:51 AM