As I sit here smoking my cigarette and thinking of what's become, I can't help but feel that I am to be blamed. Did I suffocate you? Or was I not there for you as much as you needed me? I think I was fair to you, I was there only when you wanted me to and I don't think I was breathing down your neck, in actual fact that was what you were doing to me, I got so accustomed to it. Immuned, so much so my whole life revolved around just you.
Now I sit and wait for your call as you make a decision. A decision I should be making because I wasn't the one who made a mistake, I wasn't the one who crossed the line. For some reason, for the shit I've been through in the past, I've got my priorities straight. But karma is a slap in the face. This is exactly what happened when i met you. Except that I had every reason to walk. You? Please tell me how I did you wrong? I am confused as hell.
I haven't closed my doors on you. But remember Im human too. There's only so much I can digest, I ain't a saint. Don't just tell me to deal with every damn thing because I've had my reasons. While you were being you, you never had reasons valid. Only because you knew I would eat whatever crap you fed me. I took it all in, so I could have a decent relationship with you. But see where that has brought us. While you were busy taming me, you forgot about yourself. Look what you've become.
We should take a walk.
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