Scars For Me & Souvenirs For You

Saturday, August 30, 2008

HE CALLED! HE CALLED! :D

Ariel, Greg, Suren and Sherry came over for dinner made by yours truly. They gave my meal a thumbs up and wiped out my entire dinner table. And there was a lot to eat, so that was a good sign. (but i've to wait till tomorrow, in case they get food poisoning, heh) Just missed elvis there. All the jokes and stupid crap we talked about, it was pretty evident we were all missing his presence. But it was nice cause we talked, mostly about him. HA! bitching session about my boy. it was hilarious with my parents involved as well. Hurr. Elfffffff we miss you ! :(( Too bad you missed out on my home cooked meal. Its ok, when i stay with you for three months, ill cook all 90 days till you get sick of my cooking ok. INDIAN cuisine just for you.

I got to tann this morning. The sun was scorching and lasted all morning so i wasn't gon give it a miss. Went down to the pool and fell asleep for about an hour in the sun with my tanning oil all over and woke up to find myself quite burnt. Not literally in the peeling sorta way and i'm liking the tann lines. finally. Sunday tomorrow and i've relatives from my mommy's side coming over, so entertaining guests yet again. Then i'm gon study, got some research to do for TPSW and need to get my assignment groups sorted out before school on monday. Gotta visit elfs family this week, tuition and tennis with the girls (yes steph, get your ass down too!), all amidst school and my new workload. but i like being busy. keeps me occupied and less distracted from whatever else. One day to SEPTEMBER. another agenda to keep my occupied. but i dont know how i'm gon find the time la. maybe i should let it all accumulate and then watch it all at one go, when im freeee of course. which i reckon ain't gon be anytime soon. hmmm

i misss trance. haven't been listening to my itunes much besides whats on my mp3 on the way to school and back. and i neeeeeeed new trance songs, isos 8?? ha, i shall wait long long.

i realize i like spending my nights in watching my rented DVDs. Thanks to that 24hr DVD rental machine nearby. Watched Shutter (the english version) and i still think the Thai version was way scarier and better. Rented Last Kiss..a movie with Rachel Bilson. Didn't even know she was in a movie. Didn't like the character she played though maybe cause i'm so used to seeing her play Summer in OC. But it was a good movie with a lot of uncensored scenes. AND i watched it with mommy who questions me after the movie - "why do you rent naked movies shina?" not like i planned to can! haa. Went down with Ariel earlier and rented Factory Girl. Sienna Miller's init. Suren said it ain't that great a movie only AFTER i borrowed it. So whatever, i shall watch it now and decide for myself. Was eyeing The Notebook but it was already rented out la. Grrrrr,i wanna watch it again ! not only am i a TV-series buff, now i'm a movie buff as well. Without even going to the theatres. I used to frequent the cinemas much when elf was around and ever since he left it's just been me and the laptop with my many series and movies. But im happppy.

aiite, FACTORY GIRL time.

**the world ain't half as bad as they paint it to be

♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:34 AM

Friday, August 29, 2008

TWO down, twenty two to go. BIG SIGH.

The weekend is here and my eyes are all heavy and i'm literally drained out. It's not supposed to be this way. I need sleeep, so badly. Plus i see myself spending most of my day in the kitchen tomorrow for i'm whipping up a meal for Greg, Ariel, Suren and Sherry. Haven't seen any of them in ages and since they haven't been to my new place, this seemed like the perfect excuse to cook. Greg already gave me ample warning and said the food had better taste good. OH! and it will alright ! ;)

Two weeks of school just flew pass. And the assignments are piling. The flood gates have opened. Grrr. Not good. I'm getting all worried and anxious at the same time. I shall ATTEMPT studying this weekend. However i just want to sleep my sunday away and catch up on the sleep i've lost this week. We'll see.

I have TWO tubs of ben & jerry's in my freezer la. i love donnie. thanks to him, i have choco fudge and cookie dough (my fav) yay yay yay! I'm gonna dig in and see whats interesting on tv and if there isn't anything..then CASHMERE MAFIA it is - I DIGG! should've watched it sooner.

ps: september is almost near. i can feeeeeeeeeel it. wheee !

♥the trick is to keep breathing 8:51 AM

Monday, August 25, 2008

TENNIS.SWIMMING.BEER DRINKING.WINE 'APPREICIATION'.FAMILY GATHERINGS.GAMBLING.BONDING SESSION WITH THE FRIENDS.

now that pretty much sums up my weekend. me enjoyed every minute of it. :)))

school tomorrow and baby caught me off guard today, like completely, totally 100% !! and i'm all stoked and happpppy la. you really are a (closet) sweetie, i swear.

Distance means so little when you mean so much ♥♥♥

♥the trick is to keep breathing 9:15 AM

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

MID-WEEK MADNESS

The first two days of school were goood. Social Behaviourial Studies and Dynamics of Mass Comm. I preferred the latter of course. Highly interesting, that would include my lecturer Jailani, haa funny man! Think i will be needing help with psychology though. I sense me being clueless about it, hopefully my tutorials help. Already got our assignment questions, speaking of which i've to submit my Team Charter sheet to Suma...JASON you know what to do hor? Since i wouldn't want Clara's help. (pun intended, still love you clara!)

Spontaneously met Rosh and Emz last night. A very rare chance, but we managed it after SEVEN long months. Since our last stint at Marina Mandarin. Hopefully we get to do one of those end of this year, since i will be around in Dec after all. :( I'm half happy and half sad. Means i get to spend Christmas with friends and the familia and it also means i don't get to spend it with the boy. A break to our yearly traditions eh baby? SIGH.

Anyway didn't have lecture today so i slept in till 12ish. Which would've been a norm if I had an afternoon class. But i've a long day tomorrow, TPSW Lesson 1 and 2. Bleah, why not just one lesson a day. Two of the same lectures?! I've an attention span of a goldfish. pffft !

Oh, me bought a new sandal and bag from Mphorsis yesterday. :)) Oh and nail enamel too, Anna Sui. The most expensive nail enamel i've gotten, 24 $. YELLOW some more. Me likee.

I FOUND A SHOP THAT SELLS MACARONS - Canele Patisserie Chocolaterie at Shaw Centre, just opposite Macs along MNG. It's beyond awesome. And they sell the most delightful desserts. You'll feel sinful just looking at them. Bought a box of 6 Macarons last night. SHIOK. The last two are stashed in some corner of my fridge so that no one else finds it. hehe. It's a serious eat, a must try.

Ok, i'm off for some midweek-madness, still contemplating but tuition first.

HAPPY MID-WEEK FOLKS. :)

My american boys NEW SEX:
The Acura Integra

MOVE OVER GREEN MONSTER, THE _________ IS HERE !

I just think it needs a few mods of course. Tinted windows and headlights, a change of rims and it'll look hot ! No need for a new paint job cause it looks just fine like this, plus its USA. No ones gon quite care about the colour. It's the driver that makes the car look good eh? Hurr. Of course you're missing me in the front passenger seat with you! ;) Ohh i miss the way you give me adrenaline pumping rides baby. Been awhile since i got my daily dose.

K i go dream k?

♥the trick is to keep breathing 2:35 AM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

I can still feel the after effects of last night. SER-IOUS-LY. i think i'm still a tad tipsy, thanks once again to TARGET. knn. me and my suggestions. =/ finished my lovely moet and continued the rest of the night with vodka. I OFFICIALLY hate vodka. yuck! i can still taste it in my mouth. my room reeks of alcohol! Opening ceremony for many more drunken nights by the pool. HA!

-lorraine & steffie, me love you two to tiny bits. we should rummage through boxes of old letters again. haha. MWAH !! -

oh got to see triston! steph brought him over, and he can't get enough of my cat. so cute the way he was squeezing her. (steph i want those picss!) missed him heaps.

aiite, im making this short cause im heading down for a swim, before the rain decides to come and spoil my lazy sunday!

SCHOOL TOMORROW !!!!!! :)))

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:34 AM

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

I kinda miss my old skin. I've had it since i started this particular blog, but at the same time i got quite sick of seeing it over and over.

Out with the ol' in the with the new. Kinda marks me moving into my new home as well. A whole new clean slate to begin with. We've created beautiful memories in this house we've made a home. As much as i hate where i live, these were the years in my life i will always cherish. Only wish he could be here to share it with me. With that said, i feel i've grown a lot since the end of '07 and the start of '08. I know it hasn't been long. None the less a lot has happened in a short time frame. First of all, i've never thought of myself as big-hearted or selfless. But someone recently told me that, "it's big of you to have made this selfless choice to live your life here while your other half is in another country altogether." It's a huge decision, and one you wouldn't want to look back at and regret. But i never quite thought of me as that you see. It was simple. I knew that him being here or there would make the slightest difference to me in terms of how i felt (despite the missing and all). It also means that distance was not gon' change the way i felt about him (while making the heart grow fonder). Inevitably my heart belonged to him, and he was gon be taking it with him wherever he goes. I knew right away that there was no point in staying apart from one another. All these months that we were apart for whatever reason, it defeated its purpose but taught us one great lesson. That no matter the distance our paths are meant to cross, yet again. I've learned that unconditional love goes a long way. I may still be young to speak of it, but i believe i've had my fair share of experiences to know what unconditional love means. And with him, it is and will always be.

___

okok, yada yada yada. I know everyone must be sick of me going on and on and on and on about him. But don't blame me, cause here's more. Hehe. He just got back from his road trip to The Grand Canyon and it's so gorgeous i tell you. I was watching the videos and seeing the pics that he sent me. Picturesque..But he's become so BLACK. Really. The sun must be working its magic on him, not that he needs to get any darker than he already is. Still had the cheek to say he's fairer than me. Jokes.com, reality check love.

So black and so short ! now he reminds me of casti. He looks like one secondary school boy can !

He took a picture of this cutiee, great fashion sense eh ? me like the lil shoes.

This is Aruna an old IJ friend of mine who's been sent there by the Air Force as well, rather small world eh !

SEE SEE SEE ! SEE how black he's become lor ! Sighh

Ok anyway there are a lot more pics, unfortunately i've gotta run for tuition now ! I'll upload when time permits. :)

Laterr, ohh and just so you know baby, i love you..no matter how black you get ! hurhur !

____

okok, i decided to continue uploading the pics here instead of creating a new post so...

Baby, i think you need fair & lovely !!!

There was OBVIOUSLY nothing to take here, but evidently my boy was being gatal by taking a shot with the two white chics init. COCK.

ok i would upload his video here, but i just watched it and i feel like puking. so shaky laa! wahh. think i need the loo after thiss..

♥the trick is to keep breathing 2:58 AM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Same shit different day...

However i feel differently about today. It's a new day and things may not seem bright but they are right. I'm right where i need to be and that's all that matters. :) You make me a happy person and it happens so naturally. We may have our not-so-happy-moments, but at the end of it i know it's all worth it. Cause its YOU that matters.

Miss Vini sent me this song which i've seen her hear countless times on msn, Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade and when she sent it to me she told me one thing.."when you listen to it, imagine elvis singing it to you". I obviously didn't get it and questioned her intentions but when i heard the first line, it made perfect sense why she'd say that. I've been listening to it since and wanted to share it with him, unfortunately he's fast asleep and i'll only get to do so when he wakes.

***
It reminds me of him, really does. Love the lyrics, needless to say..

//The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

♥the trick is to keep breathing 11:19 AM

Monday, August 11, 2008

The weather is inviting. its raining cold this morning and here i am awake and on my laptop. i'm going back to bed after this.

Only reason i'm up this early is cause elfie called me after what seemed like an eternity. so used to hearing from him everyday and i did not hear from him since saturday cause my babyboy went on a road trip to the Grand Canyon !! He just sent me a photo of him there, and it's gorgeous and he looks tiny with that picturesque backround. Hurhur. So cute la.

It's Tuesday and i've TWO days before i'm out of sembawang niggaz ! SERIOUSLY stoked about it. Doing up my room, checking out all the new electronics and furnitures, venturing my new neighborhood, gym-ing, swimming and what not la. yay! Still need to head to IKEA to get me some stuff. Checked out the 2009 ikea magazine and there are tonnes of things i want from there. But i guess i'll just go next week since it's so near school, and it'll be the perfect excuse to lunch and have my yummy meatballs and hotdog after school with the classmates. yes the glut speaks. pardon me.

okok, i can't sit here anymore. its colddddd, brrrr. gon tuck back in with The Little Prince.

Toodles.

//Weedsssss tonight ! finally.

**I need you so much closer

♥the trick is to keep breathing 8:55 PM

BATAM TRIP DURING THE NATIONAL DAY WEEKEND with The Familia No. 2 was awesome by my standards !! :)) Loved every minute spent there. An eventful yet insightful one due to some random 2 hour odd talk with the elders. Haa, jokes.com I swear.

One down and two to go. Here are the pics...just some of it at least. We took 300 odd pics including videos, but these are just some. Heh

[Elf my love spending time with your family got me missing you :(( you were missed. much too much, got me thinking about our trip with your family the last time..sighh.]

♥the trick is to keep breathing 2:32 AM

Thursday, August 7, 2008

My pretty bubble's been burst. things cannot get any more worse, i swear. ever since my darn school time-table landed on my lap. school's not out till Feb '09. NEXT YEAR. no US trip come December or January even. I've no breaks in between other than study breaks before my exams near and that's not even a consideration. The only thing that's gon keep me going, is the fact that he might come back during Easter. All these grand plans gone down the fucking drain. I'm bummed out and i don't want to suck it up. This is so not happening la. This was the one thing i was really looking forward to since he left and that's been snatched away from me. UGH!

NINEdamnmonthslater. NO JOKE. knn

My heart, my mind, my soul, my body aches
A hunger for, the loving arms of your embrace
I walk along the lonely road

***

I'm off to Batam tomorrow. First thing in my list of 'August-excitements'. I don't feel up for it, but if i don't get out of this crappy mood by noon tomorrow everyone's gon kick me. Grrrrr. SNAP SNAP SNAP ! I'm off to pack and sleep it off.

Coffee, cigarette and talk will really help now, too. [on a slightly happier note, i passed econs.]

♥the trick is to keep breathing 5:04 AM

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

time is a luxury you [i - ME] don't have ! or so you claim my love.

while showering i was just thinking, and thinking hard. i never quite liked the idea of having someone call me up via the phone just to wake me, i just thought of it as lame for the below mentioned reasons. I could never fathom why people would resort to wake up calls. Unless of course you do not have an alarm clock, but i reckon that if you do have a phone, cell phone then perhaps there might be an alarm of some sort in it as well? I mean i use the shittiest phone this planet has to offer..the one with an antenna (haha, ya so not funny la!) and it still has an alarm. AND if you can wake up to someone's phone call, doesn't that mean you're waking up to some form of sound. the kind an alarm makes, well close enough la. SO WHY? why would you get someone to give you a wake up call? Now to all those 'cupid-struck-lovers', the instant respond to that would be.."you're the last thing i think about before i sleep and i want you to be first person i think about when i wake (which should happen subconsciously if you ask me) hence i want to hear your voice, first thing when i am up." ????? BLEAH! really!!? ok here's when i come into play...

I give elvis wake up calls EVERYDAY. and i mean everydamnday. since i can last recall. Even when he was here, and i thought it'd end there. I mean he has his mom who sits at his bed, nudging him every five minutes to get up. (even if a bomb were to go off, elf would die in his sleep, sad to say) And when i'm at his place, his mom gets a break from those annoying inbetween5minswakeupnudges. that get oh so exhausting and make you want to strangle him. but do you call that love? (mind you, this had nothing to do with the above mentioned, we aren't one of those couples, thank gawd) who knows. perhaps. now that loveeeee obviously bridges from here to the damn united states of ARIZONA la. he is half way across the globe, and isn't it about time he be a man and learn how to wake up on his own? NO. perhaps not. See it just gets really annoying, with the time difference and how i have to set my alarm just to wake him up in the early hours of the morning (3 or 4AM) just to ring him. OR how i've to go to the ladies during work or be excused during tuition even. and its really ok, if he picks up within the first 2 calls or so. But did i mention how elf might die in his sleep if a bomb goes off? It takes close to an hour to get him to answer, hence i start calling early just so he can wake up on time. This eats into my sleep, and once again its ok now that i'm pretty much nocturnal but what about when i go back to school? His response, learn to live with it. (he giggles right after) HELLLO, elvis!! please ah, funny to you but not to me. If i made a deal with god and got him to swap our places i think you would've BAILED A REALLY LONG LONG LONG TIME AGO! HIRE someone. or if 2 effing alarm clocks aren't enough, get 20!! how long more. how fucking long more? what if i wasn't around(not that i'd have it that way), what if your mom can't make those calls?! ERRRRRR, your other girlfriends gon' make those calls? I highly doubt it.

I love you, but this. You call it love, but i call it madness, (its not even about wanting to hear my voice first thing in the morning, though most people keep telling me that that could be the only reason why you make me call you everyday, HELL NO, so not you!) in a oh so twisted way. It's been a month, and i love hearing your voice. But i also like you to be the one calling me, like when you've woken up,it's a lot nicer and doesn't eat into my sleep that much. YES, im selfish, but so are you.

I'm not mad. Just a lil upset at how far this has gone. I was just frustrated, hanging on the phone from the time tuition ended right up to Starbucks, in the queue waiting for my coffee, sat down finished half of it..amidst random talk still hanging on the phone and hearing the damn phone ringing but no one answering it. an hour later, i gave up. for the first time in a month i gave up calling. after all you're risking your job being late. I'm not to blame, often times i've been blamed but i'm not taking that shit ANYMORE.

with that said, i will leave this town just to sleep underneath your bed..

♥the trick is to keep breathing 9:37 AM

Monday, August 4, 2008

Its scary how many times i've repeated the Disturbia song by Miss Barbados ! I'm not even her biggest fan, but the song's catchy la !

Sings:
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Hehe, madness can! Sri-ish aku gonna murrderrr you ! It's all because you opened your mouth about your MRS-not. pishhh. go on and take a bow..ok now i'm just being cocky already.

I finally met lorraine, raj, panty and the khairi's ! Over yummylicious seafood at Newton. It was nice catching up for sure. Steffi ditched us for Singfest! Biatch. I am so looking forward to the weekend after next (moet & chandon champagne moments with the babygirls). So much lined up and it's perfect, cause then school reopens and it's another thing i'm looking forward to. Me liking Augustttt already! My money making schemes are in full swing now that i've got two jobs, two tuitions and i don't think i can handle anymore cause when i do go back to school it's gon be hectic hectic hectic. But right, this baby ah, don't know whether his leave will be approved for December now. Such a bummer/party-pooper he is lor! So if his leave isn't approved then i've to just go in Jan 2009! 2009 leh, next year can!! WTF right? grrrrrr! Plus god knows what my time-table for school's gon be like. And if i don't go in Dec/Jan then there isn't a point in going altogether cause he comes back during EASTER. which falls on ME BIRTHDAY! yay yay yay!! Don't let me down k baby! must must come! and i really wanna be there on your birthday + christmas + new years +++ our 3 year anni ! *crosses finger* and prays that his leave gets approved.

anyway i didn't know i had a threeesome leh? when when when? wish i did. asswipe. at least then it would make the words coming out of your mouth THEdamnTRUTH.

Continues:
Put on your break lights
Were in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight ?
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

September is gon be blisss, i foresee it. MY SERIES.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 10:24 AM

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Control your poison babe

Roses have thorns they say.

the facade; i've lost my identity.

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:02 PM

SHINA CHOPPED OFF HER HAIR ! [seee! i wasn't all talk and no action after all, though now i wish i was!]

SOBBBBBBBBBSOBBBSOBBB :((( I want my ohhhhh so longg and curly hair back, i just lost my identity!

Oh, such a drama queen i am, but it's my hair, i'll drama as much as i want! GRRRRRRRR!

GROW HAIR GROW!

fuck lahhh!

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:57 AM

Friday, August 1, 2008

The first of August is officially here [31 months and counting..], which means there are a couple of things to look forward to ! Wheeeee!

It's 4:15pm now, i got to shower and get out of the house NOW NOW NOW. Work! And Suren invited me for his 'gon-be-disabled-party' at DBL O tonight, which i'm not exactly up for. So i guess i'll just visit him after he's disabled, that way i'm being more of a true friend. It's not always about the booze and the clubs ! So don't make me feel guilty about it you asswipe. It didn't work.

There's a lot more in my mind but i'll leave it for another day.

Have a great weekend ahead!

This ones for you, scumbag ! Hurr ! [i should rot in hell]

♥the trick is to keep breathing 12:54 AM